I "only " fell down the stairs

I fell down the stairs once, top to bottom. XN was asleep. He got up a few minutes later, annoyed at having been woken up by the noise I'd made.

I had a relative staying at the time and she was open mouthed at his reaction. I told her that was usual and that, if I'd been laid sprawled at the bottom of the stairs, he'd probably just have stepped over me to go outside for his cigarette and been annoyed that I was blocking his way.

What a charmer.

Of course, I "only" fell down the stairs so what was I making a fuss for!

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One of the last things XN ever said to me was that: "it was too hard for him when I was upset".

Then he realised just how awful that sounded and shouted, "I suppose you're going to twist my words and say that to all your friends now, aren't you!"

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When my cat got run over (and I loved my little cat and he knew it), he came over and because I wasn't speaking, on account of having to take my cat to the vet and having her die on the way, he shouted at me: "do you f*cking well want me here or not?"

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I'd driven 5 hours back home from seeing my brother in hospital after he'd nearly lost his arm in an accident at work. I was in shock at seeing the state my younger brother's arm was in and was looking forward to some tlc from xN. He opened the door to me and said, "you're lucky I'm still here, you're so late". 2.5 years later and my brother is still off work and still having operations. I can't remember xN ever asking how my brother is.

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A few days before going NC with XN, I was out for a walk with my aunt. We were in the middle of nowhere and this big dog knocked her over. She had to be airlifted to hospital and has a broken leg in two places. I spent that day cradling her in a field, waiting for the helicopter to arrive, and then spending a further 8 hours in hospital with her. XN was out getting drunk that afternoon with some girls from work (although he told me he was playing golf). When I asked him a few days later why he hadn't asked me how my aunt was, he shouted, 'for god's sake, it's just a broken leg!'

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