I was too good for my N

When XN D&D'd me horribly last year, I wrote to him, out of love, and told him that I thought he needed professional help.

I thought that, for my own sake, I should stay away but I felt I could help him and didn't want to walk away without trying at least.

I am a nice, kind, giving, understanding, compassionate person. I hated to think that I could help someone and yet was choosing to walk away. So I chose not to walk away but to make one last ditch attempt to help him instead and it worked.

He took my advice and went to see his doctor. I supported him for 3 months from a distance (we didn't see each other in that time) whilst he saw his doctor, a psychologist, and a therapist.

How many other women would have stuck around and encouraged their XN to get help after being screamed and shouted at and let down on a regular basis? Most would have told him to get lost long ago and would not have done all they could do to get him some help instead.

Thanks to me, he is now getting help. Whether he chooses to put the work in himself is up to him. I, at least, got him going down that path - it wasn't easy - and for that I am proud of myself.

During our relationship I gave him everything I had - my thoughts, my support, my love, my empathy. I bought him thoughtful gifts, things he will want to keep and use; I looked after him; cared about him; and I saw through his horrible treatment of me to the pain he had underneath.

I put in more effort and sensitivity than 99% of women would. He used to tell me that I was too sensitive but I would reply that it was my sensitivity that saw that he had big problems and caused me not to dismiss him as just a b*stard.

I am intelligent, classy, passionate, dignified, caring, thoughtful and warm. I was willing to make sacrifices to make this man happy. He will never get anyone like me again, particularly now that he has become a caricature of the shallow "friends" that he is hanging out with now