Wednesday, 30 December 2009

A really bad trigger today

So today I was in a pub meeting someone for lunch and a song came on in the background. It was a terrible trigger for me. I had to go and stand outside until it had passed. Then, as I was paying, it came on again. The songs are in a loop on the stereo system apparently.

I was a wreck. I had to grab my bag and get out of there.

It took me right back to a time years ago when I was sitting in my car on my way to work, listening to this CD and thinking that I loved this man so, so much but that I could tell this relationship was going to cause me a lot of pain. I wanted the relationship to work so much. I wanted my future to be with him and I remember thinking that this felt like an ill fated love story.

Cannonball by Damien Rice

There’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
There’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
It’s still a little hard to say what's going on

There’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
There’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can´t say what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

There’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
There’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can´t see what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So its not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon.

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage, teach me to be shy
'Cause its not hard to fall,
And I don't want to scare her
Its not hard to fall
And i don't want to lose
Its not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJbz5HaKCJc

1 comment:

  1. Hi, so much of this rings true. I not only had a relationship but a work connection so very diificult to go NC. This pain is so bad... still loving some who really doesnt exist and hating what they do.I feel exhausted

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